Bandon.

Paintball plan was disrupted, again today!! Its been twice a week and I'm not longing for thrice 'cause the final shot with the existing folks is setup tomorrow. Most of you may not comprehend the thrill and addiction I've whirled myself into that's because you haven't given yourself into it once! 'Pain for Pleasure' by Sum 41 is best to describe our gameplay. My days have never been smooth these few days since it started raining, plus my ignorance came to conscience once i stepped out from my house this morning. Offered mom to help bring the garbage out and all ready to hop into Yoong's car to our destination, a tiny white thing caught my attention by the dumpster and for seconds i thought it was a dead mice. Then outa nowhere i heard whatever you call it as long as its not a 'meow', a soft noise produced by that so-called mice i had in mind. Paced myself forward to discover that it was a mice'-sized kitten, which eyes weren't quarter open and struggling to move its limps- a new-born abandoned kitten. This is when my hardiness weaken me, I have this fond for animals, whatever wherever, i just hate the world to see them strayed by the roads. Worse when its this helpless little fella, i grabbed a box, placed it inside and was then in search to provide it a shelter.

We made our first stop to PAW(animal welfare center) and displayed Bandon(a name we came up for it since its 'abandoned'. yea.) to the administrator, after a moment of looking, he rejected us. Saying it was too young to survive and whats vital to this kitten is currently in absence, the mother cat. So he laid out 2 options, to put Bandon to sleep, a more polite way to say murder, or foster it, which we had to take chances of the lack of experience in taking care of one. An animal needed to be at least 8 weeks old before they can be brought into the institution and Bandon was only less than a week old. So, i sort of decided that putting it to sleep was the best way, despite the fact i didn't want to. Got directed to the few possible vets in Subang to proceed the procedure. The first one we headed to, person in charge was all watery in eyes and with the sobby coarse voice, gave us another 2 options, pay this particular woman the rate of at least 10 bucks a day to take care of the baby, whose a well-experienced in jaga-ing kittens. Then again, put it to sleep. Considering 10 ringgit a day would be real costly for students like us, we had heavy hearts proposing that the vet would be kind enough to put it to sleep for us. She gave us a no reasoning that she couldn't carry the process out. Compassionate. So off we went, clueless of Bandon's future.

The second clinic, ps. I farking hate this vet, said commercialized, total agree.
This money making vet was resting in his office chair, giving us lectures that we shouldn't waste time on it and get back to study shits. Come on la, its a life that we are talking bout here and he's not helping at all, no suggestions nothing. But came to think about it, he would perform the procedures for us for a 30 bucks fare. Reluctantly, we had to nod our heads to the poor kitten's demise. So what if its said healthy and active but we couldn't do shit, fostering it will certainly backfire my sympathy by taking the responsibility of its death in my hands. Making the best solution available that moment, letting it go. Han and Yoong didn't want to witness how it was done, i went. 2 injections, put it to sleep then drug it to death. The reason i went is till unclear now, maybe it was my subconscious sadism prompting(i love to see people die, not animals) or i just wanted to be with it after the 3 hours bond. The corpse was buried at the park near Tim's place, which is the least thing we could do for it.

Ironic no? It was only last night i asked for the guys' opinions on Euthanasia, also called mercy killing, followed today we had to perform a death sentence on a kitten. All i have to say is, its just saddening to see living creatures strayed and left helpless when we can do something about it. The bottom line is I managed to put my ignorance aside for once and do something which most would find futile. Humans are just parasites and the virus of this planet, abusing every opportunity to obtain wealth for themselves even we have to devastate. We do not deserve these lives we have now if i have to be sincerely speaking, living for the sake of living and destroying the ecosystem and climate. Unfortunately, I'm part of this. Or is that so i love people getting slaughtered than an animal getting injured.

We people will farking doom in hell. End.